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前幾日在香港報紙上看到我的恩師譚家明獲得今屈金馬獎最佳導演，我第一時間google有關他的得獎電影“父子”的訪問。
http://paper.wenweipo.com/2006/11/21/FA0611210001.htm

其實在剪接理論上，他才是我的恩師。

記得以前在創意媒體學院讀學士時，我都好期待每個星期三上他的剪接課，開始時因為好奇，然後党得好玩，最後党得自己完全愛上剪接這門技巧而且所有學科得分最高也是剪接課。評審我們的DV剪接作品時，譚家明很多時會慢動作放錄影帶，直頭逐格逐frame改你。他給我的每個comment及讚賞，比起其他老師，他對我意義特別大。我尊重他的工作態度，更欣賞他的才華和魄力。到現在，我還是喜歡他為王家衛所剪的“亞飛正傳”。

剪接絕對是一部電影的第二導演。

A close girlfriend of mine in Hongkong was chatting with me on Messenger the other day, she was telling me how sad she was. She said she felt very lonely. Check this girl out, she is like my age, err, 25, her major was Law studies and now she is working in the legal department in a media company. She had couples of relationship before; but those guys seemed to "line up" to break her hearts. She's been single for a while. She said she doesn't find anyone who is right for her. Perhaps she is not the kind of person who knows how to express her true feeling by using words. I knew her, I've known her for 13 years. When she said, "I feel lonely", I instantly wrote her back, "You are not lonely, you're just alone. The real loneliness is when you sleep next to your lover and you still feel lonely."
It's such a cliche to ask "why people get lonely?" but yet, we still don't know the answer. For me, it's not about how much money u have in your bank account or in your pocket, it's not how nice the house u live in, it's not about how many people u know and how many "contacts" on your cell phone. It's not about having someone called "boyfriend/girlfriend".. I remember the time I feel truly contented and happy in my life was the final year of my studying in England. It was 1999/2000. I was truly happy and free from everything I got. I didn't have a house, any money, job; instead, I had a peace of mind. And persons who I could share all my passion with.
When people say "money can't buy happiness." Yes, we all know it's BULLSHIT. However, money can't take away the loneliness on your mind. Sometimes loneliness is scarier than being broke...

Do you have cats?
I got two at home. All home cats do is to eat, to sleep and walk around in the house waiting for something interesting to happen. When they want affection, they walk up to your slowly and wiggle their tails with a cute face. But when you walk up to them and try to look cute, they run away. Cats are definitely not so nice. Somehow, we still love them, we still caress them, feed them and keep them with us; because owner like us, we are fucking selfish and lacking of patience to take care of anyone except ourselves. Cats become our best companions – they are easier to live with compares to dogs.

Technically cats are not companions. They are just some cute-looking creatures that wait for you at home quietly and never need your time and attention but still wiggle their tails at you with a cute face. They do not talk and walk with you, they do not share your interests and ambitions. Some of us might think, ‘oh I don’t need someone to share my interests and ambitions, as long as she looks cute and don’t give me trouble.’ If you think like this, yeah, cats are your best choice. She is even happy to lick your fingers after you give her a piece of leftover chicken on your dirty plate.

When I look at my baby cat Xiao Zhu, I can’t help but thinking, ‘what a life.’ Then I can’t help caressing her back and nudging her nose with my nose piercing. She would turn stare at me and give me that “wink wink” innocent look on her face. I love her. At the same time, I know I’m not the kind of person who knows how to keep pets. I am not the one who changes her shit and food everyday. Our maid does. I’m just someone who lives under the same roof with her and plays with her when she is cute.

A cat can live up to around 9 years. Let’s say you keep a kitten when she was born, you’ve got like 9 years to “hang out” with her. Or when you are sick of her, you can give her away, and she won’t even swear at you and hit you nuts. If you bring another cat home, she doesn’t throw you pillows and scream at you, she might get defensive to another cat at first; give her some time, they will seem to get along after a while –well, because they have no choice. They are just home cats.

Sometimes I wonder if I can think like a home cat, it would be so much easier to control my emotion..

most of my close friends probably know of my previous blog with Xanga.com and keep going back for more.. but sorry, I was too lazy to write more and until recently when I am back to the "writing mode", I found out that Xanga.com is no longer working within China, their server must have been blocked in China for some reasons.. (I must NOT write anything bad about the "middle kingdom" on my new blogSpirit since I've just found this great blog sites that works in China. Aliluyah!)

2.09AM on a rainy Sunday night in Shanghai. I'm glad that I can post some shit online again and I'm getting sleepy